Greetings everyone,

I’ve received a lot of feedback and questions regarding last month’s newsletter, and so I’d like to expand on it a bit.

In the last letter I told you about being advised to let go of my stories, my life stories. Told that I was done with my past and that it was time for me to know who I am beyond my stories.

Now I want it said that I did not feel stuck in the past. I did not feel a need to go to my past for excuses or to find someone, or something to blame. I’d been there, I’d left that behind. I thought I was doing good.

However, as life did not give me a manual, I'd been trying to create one myself. The only material available being, of course, my past. It was a manual of “How Maia moves in the world", with a lot of; “My button was just pushed, where did that come from...?”, or “This is challenging to me because of …” It was about what my mom did, and my dad didn’t, about being Swedish, and my brother, and my ex, and all of their influences on my life and how these influences made me who I am today. To be honest I felt like I was being responsible and taking ownershipof "my stuff".

Now it was suggested that I trash my manual?? ....yikes..

So I looked back into my past, (don't tell anyone :)) and I thought to myself, "well now, it wouldn't be the first time you took a leap of faith, and one way or another, you always do land you know."

Hmm... to be in this world as if I just arrived... what a novel idea.

Hope all is well with you :)

Maia

PS. I've had a few of you letting me know you don't always receive the newsletters. I am suspecting they may end up in your Spam Box sometimes. This month I am changing the way I send them out, however if there are any you are missing and would like to read, there is an archive on my website which is updated every month, and you are more than welcome to check them out there.

http://www.celebrateyourlight.com/newsletters.html

I was wondering if you wouldn’t mind answering a question of mine?

Of course.

In my previous letter I wrote about an experience I had where I was advised to stop looking to my past to try and understand the present, where I was to know myself beyond my stories.

It’s been an interesting few weeks, as I’ve come to realize that I reminisce about the past much more often than I thought, and that indeed I have used it as a kind of training course material for life.

Now, how do I change all that? And besides, what does it mean “to be done”?

Dearest Maia, first of all let me tell you that you have done nothing wrong. You have not been going about things the wrong way. There is no such thing. You have done what you have done and it has been perfect for where you have been. “Being done” simply means that there are now other options open to you. You have enough self-knowledge to stand on, without leaning on an understanding of yourself as seen through stories.

You have meditated and you have felt a connectedness with a larger part of you and hence, you have come to have a perception of who this "Maia-without-stories" might be.

It is time, simply because you are now able to do something that you would not have been able to do before.

So how do I do it?

As memories come up, give them your blessings. Release them with love, trust and gratitude. Realize that some things may never be understood with the conscious mind, and that even so, one can love, trust and be grateful for them.

I think I understand about being grateful for them, grateful for what they taught me. Where does “trust” come in?

Trust in the flow of life. Trust in the perfection of a greater consciousness.

And “love”?

Love life. Love the humor and the quirkiness and the befuddlement and the annoyance of it all. Recognize that life is an amazing adventure.

No stories?

You can tell your stories. You can tell them with love, trust and gratitude :)

Thank you Octuvious, this has been most helpful, not only for me, but I hope, also for others who are reading this.

Indeed.

This concludes this reading. In our hearts you rest, as we send you love.